Every Fangirl's Dream

Everyone has hopes. They have passion, goals and most especially dreams which is either achievable or just for imagination. Fangirls also do. They believe, visualize and dream. In fact, almost all of them have common dream.

Daydreaming, always.

Most fangirls want to have a lot of money to be spent for official merchandise like official albums, concert tickets, fan meeting tickets and most especially plane ticket to Korea plus pocket money. Just like me, every fangirl really wants to have a collection of each one’s idols’ albums because it feels fulfilling in our part. Of course fangirls also wish to see their idols live through live concerts, music shows, and fan meet and greets or album signing, even just once in their lifetimes. Unfortunately, I haven’t achieved this dream yet and I’m really looking forward to save a lot in order to attend fandom events which are usually held in Manila.

Every fangirls wants this - KPOP MERCH COLLECTION

2NE1 Concert AOA Live

Fangirls also desire to go to Korea and meet their idols on streets, cafés, and shopping malls or even outside the company which the celebrities are under. Going to tourist spots in Korea where their idols usually film for variety shows is always part of every fangirl’s bucket list. They want to hang out with Korean people and make friends out of them.  They want to buy Korean-made products which certain kpop stars endorse. Most fangirls also want to have surgery and cash to spend on cosmetics just to look like Korean personalities.

Just like any other fangirls, I, too, daydreamed of the things previously mentioned. But the highest ambition of a fangirl is to be friends their idols by becoming an idol too. It means that most fangirls, including myself, aspire to be a kpop trainee and debut in korea as a kpop star.  It may be vague but fangirls do everything for them to be able to join open auditions/screenings and pass it to be promoted as a kpop trainee. 

KPOP STAR HUNT

Because of kpop influence, I once tried joining Kwin and Kim Entertainment Open Auditions with enjoyment and experience as my main purpose. I didn’t expect that I would be able to pass and proceed to the next levels because it was my first time and most people who auditioned are already having dancing and singing workshops compared to myself who was just a newbie in these fields. I’m thankful for that achievement tho, at least, it gave me another worth noting experience.  But, I would still choose to be successful in my studies first and have kpop as my secong priority –well, I guess it would be the right choice.

Kwin and Kim Open Auditions 2014 @Waterfromt Hotel, Lapu Lapu

 But the greatest and the most unreachable dream every fangirl has is of course marrying their idols or kpop groups' biases. Most fangirls, including me, are aware about this sad reality that they,  our idols, don't even know we exist. But still, many fangirls hope and wish every 11:11 on the clock that someday their idols will notice them because they don't have any other ideal guys besides those celebrities. But if they can't marry even one of their biases, they'd prefer to be in  a relationship with a fanboy.

Fangirls live in their own fantasy world that's why most of them daydream about relatively impossible things and imagine that it would come true just for them to feel satisfaction. This only proves that fangirls are not merely fans and followers but, are also great dreamers and believers.

Fangirling is my Job

       Each creature was created with a specific purpose. We are all destined to play different roles in this movie-like world. Some may act as doctors, teachers, business men, students, dependents, servants etc. but there's a distinct job that only a few dared and stayed faithful for years no matter what. That work is no other than "Fangirling". 

       Nobody ever said that fangirling was easy. It was not an always-happy work for it's sometimes stressful, painful yet exciting. Just like any other occupations, it requires lots of effort, patience, understanding and faithfulness. There's no application form needed; interest and will are enough.

     The weird thing about fangirling is that fangirls still do it even if it needs lots of energy and financial support without  receiving large amount of salary. The only things they get are satisfaction, fun, some disappointments, inspiration and mixed emotions. 

      Fangirls follow fansite masters',  kpop stars' and entertainment agencies' personal social media accounts like instagram, twitter and official pages in facebook to know the latest happenings. Fan site masters are the ones responsible for taking pictures and doing intense stalking to the personalities. They are also the ones sending most fan gifts to their idol's dormitories or during fan meetings.

CL official IG

Fansite Masters be like

       Usually famous fangirl spazzers and fansite masters sleep only 2-3 hours a day and stay up late at night just to get new updates and fresh informations which they would be disseminating to their followers through social media. Last summer, I tried that kind of spazzing using my role playing accounts in different social networking sites but unfortunately, I wasn't able to do it for a long time because I find it really tiresome. As a result, I received many complaints from my followers, so I decided to deactivate my spazzing accounts.

Famous Spazzers be like

      Normal fangirls stalk and follow dedicated spazzers online and through SMS in order to be updated as well. Every fangirl really allots time just to watch variety shows, music videos, live showcases, latest comebacks and debuts, reality shows and TV guesting of their idols. They also memorize the lyrics and study reading and writing Hangul in order to understand the songs.

     Fangirls usually spent almost half of the day just sitting in front of PCs or mobile phones just watching or all kpop related videos and articles. Most of time, fangirls make endless blogs, reviews and reaction videos of any newly released kpop song, albums and music videos. Fangirls also spend time watching korean dramas that features their favorite idols as story characters. 

    Part of the fangirling job to practice kpop dances by watching tutorials. Sometimes, fangirls also cover different kpop songs and upload it on YouTube or sound cloud. Fangirling means supporting so somehow, it becomes a responsibilty for fangirls to vote for idols through online and mobile votings during music showdowns in different music channels.

FANGIRL COVER GROUPS

VOTING POLLS

    Writing and reading fan fictions is also a common habit for fangirls. Organizing fandom meet ups, groups and celebrating kpop stars' birthdays or group anniversaries already became usual to them too. Memory storage became essential in fangirling. Fangirls' phones, PCs, tablets/Ipads are all full of Kpop music videos and more pictures of their idols than their own pictures. Ipods and mp3 players are mostly having kpop songs in  the playlist.

Fangirl-organized event

    Fangirls made official kgroups' shirts as their uniform for this job. At first, it's difficult to handle balance between studies and practical work but as time passes, everything will run smooth. I've doing fangirling job since last January and I find it really amazing. Instead of experiencing boredom, I can have another source of entertainment which is kpop. 

    Fangirling doesn't only require the "like" but most importantly your heart towards kpop. Kpop fandom will soon become your family once you start liking the genre, thus, fangirling is not only about enjoyment but most especially about the control of emotions and the connection between the fans and their idols.  It may have no salary but at least it makes us fangirls, happy and inspired in times when we feel down.

Sneak Peak to my KPOP Fan-girl Lifestyle

       Nobody said fangirling was easy. Once you get started and have this path as a choice, there's no turning back, because i tell you, leaving is really difficult. Fangirling is not just a source of entertainment for me, it somehow became part of my lifestyle. It actually added colors to my life to the point that boredom had no place in my day. 

The main reason why i love kpop is because the artists really worked hard for the success and fame they have right now. They auditioned and were qualified because of their amazing talents and charm. They trained for 2-10 years before they could debut as a kpop star to ensure that they are really prepared. The process of kpop stardom was never uncomplicated, thus, these artists who made it really deserved to be admired. Also, most kpop songs really have sense in terms of lyrics and meaning, plus the pleasant tune or beat of their music.

     

      I started appreciating Korean pop and Korean dramas as early at the age of 11, when I was in Grade 6. At that time, I only knew a few and common artists/bands like Super Junior, SNSD, Wonder Girls, 2NE1, SS501, Go Hye Sun, Lee Min Ho etc. I enjoyed the genre of their music and the amazing plot twists of their dramas but I'm not very much into it yet. It was just a sideline amusement.

      During highschool, I stayed in a dormitory school directed by nuns. We were not allowed to spend nights by just watching movies or searching about stuff which weren't academically related. Our study time schedule was being controlled, so I was really outdated due to some projects and strict rules. I can only watch korean dramas during weekends, if not busy and have no time in stalking, checking my SNS acounts or watching new kpop music videos, music shows and debuts. This caused me to develop lesser interest with kpop and payed more attention to my acads and vocational courses. 

    We graduated December 11, 2013 because we have a different curriculum, thus, I had 7 months vacation due to the academic shift in UP. The first month after commencement was really monotonous, so I decided to divert my attention back to kpop. I watched new music videos and got really attracted to those new artists' talents, charms, and humor. They were so amazing that I can't stop watching more of their videos again and again. Hence, my fangirl feels emerged anew.

    My first fandoms included EXO-L (EXO), ARMY (BTS), BESTFRIEND (BOYFRIEND), AGASE (GOT7), BLACKJACK (2NE1) and SONE (SNSD). From then on, I started stalking, spazzing and updating about them. I followed their official social networking accounts and spent more than half of the day watching their variety or reality shows, music videos and live performances. I spent most days sitting in front of the computer squeeling, laughing and emoting alone. It may be weird but i was happy with what I was doing . I can't afford to miss even a single show with my bias (favorite artist) as a guest, thus, like EXO, i really watch all the episodes or versions.

I am usually like this whenever I'm in front of the computer screen
 trying to update about kpop

EXO Fan meeting

  I tried to memorize their songs and dance steps. I even had online Korean Language lessons so that I could easily understand and appreciate more their songs and shows. Now, I can already speak some Korean greetings or sentences and could even read and write basic Hangul. Familiarizing the lyrics and dance steps of their musical pieces also became easy. I then started to collect the group's official and non-official merchandises like albums, posters, pins, fandom shirts, lanyard, lightsticks, fandom masks , photo cards/stickers etc. My phone, tablet and computer galleries are full of my favorite korean artists' photos and videos. 

A TYPICAL FANGIRL'S ROOM IS USUALLY LIKE THE PICTURES SHOWN ABOVE

         All my social media accounts like facebook, twitter, instagram, youtube and tumblr are until now,  full of kpop stuff, pictures, updates and posts by my kpop friends and famous kpop spazzers.  Also, because of kpop, I've met a lot of amazing people and many new friends for I also attend some kpop events in Cebu like CKS, CKIH, HallyuCon, K-fest and Fandom events. In fact, most of my close friends are kpop fans too.  

Cebu Kpop Star Preliminaries with new kpop friends

Project 365: A Plethora of Happiness (EXO- Cebu Pilipinas Anniversary Celebration)

SMS Funday with KPOP friends wearing EXO Overdose Shirt

     My style of dressing up also changed because of kpop.  I prefer more of a cute style over a sexy and bitchy upbringing. I even joined cover groups (PSH and CHIKSERR) and korean entertainment auditions (Kwin and Kim Entertainment Auditions) for becoming a kpop idol trainee because of much influence. Because of kpop, i also dreamt of being a kpop star, although that's not my biggest ambition but I am a bit interested tho. Yes, it's totally weird but it would be the easiest way to meet your bias whom you've been longing to see. 

PSH - Apink Cover Group during UPPSYMA Aquiantance Party

CHIKSERR - Trio Cover Group

My first kpop trainee audition experience (Kwin and Kim Entertainment)

     I also read and create fan fictions online. Also, kpop is the reason why i'm not interested in love relationships between opposite sex cause I'm too busy having concern about my imaginary boyfriends. Kpop raised my standards so high that I'll probably be forever alone. 

Forever in a relationship with my bae. I'm not single, he's just in Korea, busy with his carrer.

     Another reason why I like kpop because they are childlike, fresh, light and natural. Their variety shows are really funny and definitely very cute. I also like the beat of their music and the language itself. Also, they are more of talent plus looks as a bonus but are really focused on a person's natural potential. I love Korea but I'm a proud Filipino. 

        As of now, Kpop is not just a thing for me but a part of me. It brightens my mood in times of stress and makes living surprising and vast. I have this time management in order not for my student and fangirl life clash. I still spazz but I make it sure that I study all my lessons and make assignments first. Kpop takes part during my free times. 

         Fangirling may seem weird but indeed, the experience is worth sharing!

Project 365 - EXO- Cebu First Anniversary Celebration with college Kpop friends

    

     

Fangirling Is?

kpop fangirl - A female who is obsessed with either korean actor or kpop groups or korean celebrities . Similar to the breed of fanboy. Have been known to glomp, grope, and tackle when encountering said obsessions.

Filipino Fangirls during FT Island's Concert in Manila

"Fangirling" is a term used to describe extreme excitement over a certain fandom. It's not just a for entertainment purposes but particularly, a choice that will soon change your life style.

It's very difficult to describe what fangirling really means unless you've been into such. In order to have its sense thoroughly conveyed, read and imagine the following scenes.

-" You are surfing the net. You opened your favorite social networking sites which are facebook and twitter. As you scroll the news feed down, you saw a photo teaser of a new kpop idol or group which will debut, or else release an album or have a concert and fan meeting. You were star struck with the members and their concept. It's the first time you've seen that picture but it made a great impact on your mind. Then you develop this feels for them. You become curious and opened google and then try to gather some information for specific purposes.

    After that research, you noticed a video link of their music video teaser. As you were watching, you were having shortness of breath, fainting, high pitched noises, shaking, fierce handshaking, wet panties and developed attraction to them. After watching, you were really amazed and can't stop watching it over and over again. Then, the stalking continues. " This shows that you are in the interested stage going to the starstruck stage.

-" You told your friends about it like the way it felt to fall in love with these gorgeous creatures. To your surprise, your friends also knew and like them too. Then you start to exchange thoughts and have a conversation in which the topic only circulates on that particular k idol or group. Then you start wasting unlimited time stalking, arguing, discussing, ogling etc. the object of your "fondness". Then every time you meet, most of your topics will be all about them and what's new. Also, you can't stop squealing.        
    After days, you start to be in the denial stage wherein you would often face the computer, talk to your idol and say "Oh my god! You don't exist. No, stop making me fall in love with you. Hey wait, marry me, i want babies. Why you gonna be so hot? No, I'm not crazy but wait oh my goodness stop being gorgeous i hate you for letting me fall with you and for not knowing me! C'mon, this is enough!" But then you start stalking and updating again again. This the weird yet hilarious side of fangirling.

Fangirl Feels

Here's a brief and short script that accurately and directly describes that Fangirling Thingy:

EXO/ other k group/ k idols: "Anyeong haseyo! Saranhaeyo!(Hello everyone, I love you) [Then bows down and gives a flying kiss while cutely smiling and waving to the fans.]

Fangirls: "SQUEEEEEE! (shouts, says different kinds of emotions, can't contain feels, rushes to the front and randomly takes pictures, some even develop tears of joy) "

Uncontrollable Fangirl Feels~